I guess since I have nothing better to do at work, I'll use my time here to write about how I have nothing to do. I was really excited about this job for about two weeks. During those weeks, I was attempting to train myself and learn about the furniture business. I considered it a new opportunity and hoped it would be a stepping stone to a new exciting time in my life. Not so much.
After week 2, I started to hear all the gossip going on around me and learned that things aren't going well for the company. We have since been taken over by corporate and the previous owner, the one who hired me a month ago, is no longer part of the company. All agreements and contracts I had with him are now null and void and we are officially under corporate control. Living with the by-the-book-with-no-room-for-change-and-please-keep-your-own-individualism-to-yourself-while-your-at-work attitude. Fun stuff.
I've now lost my salary, my at-work freedom, and if I stay, my dignity. Right? Hmmm...what to do? Honestly, I don't see the store staying open for much longer so I've decided to stay here and work fewer hours until they close their doors. Might as well. At least it's a little money for a while. I can use my free time to look for yet another job. Ugh!!
That's my first frustration. My second is that this week I've discovered that pretty much EVERYONE I KNOW is pregnant. My friends and I are all trying to get pregnant right now and it has worked for everyone but me. As a matter of fact, it only took ONE TRY for all of them. Meanwhile, my husband and I have been trying longer and nothing. Another reason it makes me angry is because I have been married for 8 years and they've all been married for about a minute!! Haven't my husband and I put in the time?? Haven't we earned the right to have children first???!!! Ok, I know that's not how it works but still. Can you tell I'm frustrated?
Well that's my bitch for the day. I'm trying to channel my patience this week. The good news is that I get to go home to Arkansas and see my family tomorrow. Woo hoo!!
I'm so sorry the job didn't work out for you. Maybe there's a good reason for that. Maybe you are going to be pregnant soon and throwing your guts up every day and not be able to work. Hmmm? Well, maybe. Chin up, my lovely. Come home to Mama.
ReplyDeleteAw, sissy. I love you. I know exactly how you feel. Please know that you are not alone. I remember when I was trying to get pregnant with Max and everyone around me was pregnant, including this one girl that I didn't like very much and I felt she was undeserving and not ready to be a mother, while I, on the other hand, would make a PERFECT mother!! Well, we all know that I'm not a perfect mother, but I did finally get to be one, and you will too. There is nothing that God puts in your heart, nothing that you want so bad that it aches, that He won't help you find. Chin up! Can't wait to see you! Love you!
ReplyDeleteOh Jill! I do know exactly how you feel!! I am sorry that we share this same pain! I hope you are having a good weekend in Arkansas and I will praying for you!!
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